b a t t l e f i e l d.

and i'm my own worst enemy.

12:44am, 19 July 2013.

i hate losing sleep. i hate to count the hours left. i hate time-zone differences. i hate staring at my phone. i hate to be startled awake by the sound of my ringing text. i hate bad wifi connection. i hate waiting for phonecalls. - while you were away.

12:47am

i don't know what to do although i have plenty of undone things in my list. i don't know if it's PMS, or is it just everything else that is wrong.

12:49am

i am hungry. but i don't think i should eat. :(

12:50am

takes a puff.

12:52am

i refuse to think. about anything.
about things that have went wrong. but i am not putting up a fight like i usually do. what is the point? then i came across this line saying ; "what doesn't matter to anyone, doesn't matter to you."

what is significant enough?

people changes, people gives up. and they say there's a reason behind every happening. just that sometimes, you'll never get to find out why it did take place. sometimes, some things are better left unknown. be it feelings, be it thought, be it anything. maybe the truth will surface some day. maybe.

just sudden thoughts. random.

1:00am

go take a bath. and shut my eyes. (:

goodnight.
xoxo