today, i got lost while trying to find my way home.
i saw familiar signs which i thought might lead me home.
so i walked. and walked. and walked.
but i still find myself nowhere near home.

i wonder who knows where i was.
i wonder who could find me.

frustrated with almost everything and everybody.
i was angry. i was upset.
but i told no tales.

this shouldn't be the way baby.. no..

i promise to give myself the best.
i promise to love myself the most.
i promise i will be everything to myself.
i promise to ..

i should, and i will.

sick like a kitty. tired like a puppy.
to shanghai tomorrow again.
goodnight.

PEOPLE CHANGE.
it's either you live with it, or leave it.
and i chose to leave, long long back ago.

back from christchurch.

and that scenic view from my room.

i got the last mambo over and done with.

reliving every single moment i once had.

that feeling.

i don't think there's a word good enough to express it all.

"and i was dying inside to hold you, couldn't believe what i felt for you"

well, there isn't any reason for me to be lost in it anymore..

and, my birthday's in 3 days later.

i am turning 23!

(:

i have no plans.

not because i'm rostered for work.

but because i am left on standby(s).

what am i suppose to feel then?

perhaps hope for icn-sfo?

or what?

it's going to be a 24hours period since a good sleep!

CRASHING.

lastly......

WHAT'S UP TOMORROW?

LET'S WAIT AND SEE.

till then,

early night, good night.

on an unofficial off for 6 days. 

usual night with my dearest(s) - checked.
zombie - checked.
getting wasted - checked.
love-hate mambo date - checked.
sleeping in - checked.
home cooked food - checked.
late night tv - checked.
movie - checked.
grandma house - checked.
lunch/dinner with mum - checked.

and i left out cleaning up my room. everything of mine at home is a big mess still. time to sleep and be back to work tomorrow. :)

i think you could tell.. 

there's no need for a speech.

as far as i am concern, i am here to stay for good. 

well, at least.. 

period.